I finally got to the scene in “Morgan” that I’d planned 3 months ago. Yes, I know, a long time to keep something in your head, but I’m not very good with writing out of chronological order. I’d much rather write utter shite and then go back and fix it then write chapter 19 before chapter 4.

Anyway, this is a big day for me because the scene is a sex scene. “Morgan” has been developing for nearly four years. I came up with Morgan, the character, back in 2004 shortly after my first Nanowrimo. In 2005 I wrote my first attempt at a Morgan story for that year’s Nanowrimo and utterly despised the product. I shelved the story for a very long time, coming back to work on it here and there, but it wasn’t until this summer that it all just finally clicked and I’ve steadily been writing “Morgan” since. But, through all those four years, despite all the character changes Morgan has gone through and all the story evolutions, one thing hasn’t changed — who Morgan was going to hook-up with first. And I finally got there!

And in true geeky fashion, I wanted it to be done just right. So, I picked out a perfect playlist of music to listen to while I wrote it and I kept the lights dimmed and typed. The music actually helped quite a bit and I saved the list as “Smex” so next time I write a sex scene it’ll be ready to go in the background. If you’re wondering what my playlist is, here you go:

1. 3 Doors Down - So I Need You (3:50)
2. Christina Stürmer - All I Want (ana ahabak) (3:49)
3. Sinéad O’Connor - Nothing Compares 2 U (5:07)
4. Sophie B. Hawkins - Damn I Wish I Was Your Lover (5:23)
5. The Bloodhound Gang - The Bad Touch (4:21)
6. buck cherry - Crazy Bitch (3:22)
7. Eurythmics - Sweet Dreams (4:52)
8. Kylie Minogue - I Can’t Get You Out Of My Mind (3:50)
9. Live - Deep Enough (3:20)
10. Marcy Playground - Sex And Candy (2:51)
11. Myah Marie - Stiletto Sex (3:30)
12. Greenskeepers - Pussy (feat. Princess Superstar) (GK Remix) (4:12)
13. Prozzak - Sweeping Romance (2:44)
14. Real McCoy - Another Night (3:55)
15. Red Hot Chili Peppers - C’mon Girl (3:48)
16. Scooter - I Was Made For Lovin’ You (3:31)
17. She Wants Revenge - Tear You Apart (4:44)
18. Stiltskin - Inside (4:26)
19. The Darkness - I Believe In A Thing Called Love (3:38)
20. Yoshika - Loop In My Heart (4:59)

Of course, halfway through the scene John came in and whined he needed to get some food. I muttered, “You realize I’m writing a sex scene and you’re totally killing the mood!” To which he replied, “But wouldn’t you write it better on a full stomach?” So, in the end, I had to leave the lovers hanging so we could go to Eegee’s for sandwiches.

And yes, I’ll leave you with an excerpt. I’m too lazy right now to put it under a cut or anything, so I’ll just let it all hang out. Remember, I haven’t edited or anything yet…

It was a quick kiss, a butterfly touch of lips upon lips. But, it held offers and promises. Morgan pulled back and searched Quinn’s face. His blue eyes were big with surprise and he reached out and grabbed Morgan by the shoulders.

“Morgan—” he began, but Morgan didn’t want him to say anything sensible and logical. And if he mentioned that her past life had been wrong one more time, she may just have to punch him, which wasn’t sexy.

She’d much rather fuck him.

She shook her head slightly, cutting off any questions, and leaned forward to kiss him again, pressing her body against his. Quinn hesitated for only an instant longer before returning the kiss, deepening it, taking it over. He tasted good—sleeping breath and everything aside—feeling his lips play over hers made her tingle and when his tongue ran over her lower lip slowly, Morgan felt desire explode in her abdomen. She hadn’t expected Quinn to be a good kisser. He was tentative, hesitant, but it worked in his favor because he was driving her crazy just by his soft kisses.

*devious laugh* And before anyone says, “Hey, where’s the smut?!” I said I’d give you just an excerpt…a small taste, shall we say? Oh yes, and those of you who know of the Great USB Flash Drive Loss of 2006, do not worry, I backed up everything as soon as I finished the scene. Fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me…

Oh yes, I found some good advice on how to write kissing and sex scenes. If you’re interested:

10:30 pm | Category: Morgan, Writing | | 1 Comment

As featured on Colbert Report, cockberg! It’s all natural.

*giggle*

(I think working in a middle school is gonna make my humor warped for good.)

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I sometimes wish I had a magic remote control, like in Click, that would let me pause the world so I don’t have to face something until I’m good and ready for it. Ah, Monday Blues on a Sunday evening. *sigh*

I cleaned out my makeup bag this evening. Yes, very interesting, no? But I realized I still had a half-used powder compact I hadn’t opened since I was a freshman in college, a few tins of eyeshadow I bought and realized the color didn’t suit me, and a bottle of empty Clinique foundation that I seem to have kept in case I need to buy the product again (even though I have since graduated to another type of foundation). So, I emptied all the old stuff out and kept what I use — and a few tins of eyeshadow I couldn’t get rid of just in case (hey, baby steps, right?). My face is completely made up like a mask because I tried out some of those makeups I wasn’t sure I wanted to keep or get rid of. I think in the next hour or two I’ll go wash my face and head to the gym. I feel restless.

I also deleted some 15 pages of “Morgan” today. Morgan gets shot in the thigh, which compliments her other bullet wounds in both shoulders. All these wounds were done to try and incapacitate her, not because anyone was really trying to kill her, however, its proving a unique challenge to try and write someone with bullet wounds. I knew that it took a while to heal bullet wounds, but I didn’t know how long, and then questions started popping in my head: What about physical therapy? Infection? Does she have to go to the hospital? What about pain? While in older times people would have sucked up a bullet wound, probably taken a swig of whiskey, and continued on their merry way, it gets harder to make such behavior believable in a futuristic setting. The principle is the same when there are blackouts. People in by-gone times didn’t have the joys of electricity, but we do, and so when the lights go out I for one suddenly think, Crap, what will I do now? And quickly get antsy and bored. In the future where there is medical miracles, Morgan would be even less equipped to deal with bullet wounds without medical assistance.

However, I wrote 15 pages before I really began thinking about all this stuff and went to my local Barnes & Nobles and Borders to do a bit of research. I also realized I forgot to mention anything about bullet extraction! So, after learning about recovery times (weeks) and the necessary physical/occupational therapy afterwards (especially for those wounds in her shoulders), I decided those 15 pages were going to have to be rewritten. However this may work in my benefit. I can do some character development during Morgan’s downtime, particularly between her and the love interest, and I decided to push the sex scene back 2 chapters, which I think makes the whole thing much more organic and believable. While Morgan has a tendency to jump into bed, Quinn definitely does not.

When I told John all this, he said, “You know, it could have worked the way you were writing it. The bullet could have just gone clean through the thigh, missing the bone. Then you wouldn’t have had to worry about bullet extraction and everything –”

I said, “Don’t tell me that after I deleted the 15 pages. Not listening! La la la la! Besides, it’s definitely better this way.”

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